Oceans apart day after day And I slowly go insane I hear your voice on the line But it doesn't stop the pain If I see you next to never How can we say forever Wherever you go Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes Or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you I took for granted, all the times That I though would last somehow I hear the laughter, I taste the tears But I can't get near you now Oh, can't you see it baby You've got me goin' Crazy Wherever you go Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes Or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you I wonder how we can survive This romance But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance Oh, can't you see it baby You've got me goin' crazy Wherever you go Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes Or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you --------------------------------------- we could have made it to 6 months in 3 days if things had worked out. i dont know why im still holding on. maybe im just foolish and dumb. maybe. but something tells me not to give up and to hold on as friends. however my only question is how long? i dont want to be waiting forever for just one thing to happen. everyday i struggle with the same questions as well as trying to push my feelings away and it's finally taking a toll on me. i long for you to call me on the phone and taking all my problems away, i long for you to hold my hands and keeping them warm, i long for you to take me on long drives in your car and spending time together. there are so many other things i long for. but i know i cant ask for them anymore. even asking for a reply of a text message is impossible anymore. you dont know how many times i just sit and cry, wishing thing had turned out differently, thinking why we cant be happy together, but hurting me instead. you dont know how many times i wanted to pick up the phone and yell at you for doing this to me. you dont know how i have to keep myself busy every second every minute every hour of the day. you dont know how many time i've dreamt of us happy together one family. you dont know how many times i regret putting in so much effort only to be pushed away. you dont know how much i long to be happy again. you dont know how much i long for you to answer all these questions and make me happy again. all you know is that you're not ready for me or my questions. and i dont know if you still like me. i dont know if you say things you dont mean. i dont know if i should keep holding on to you. i dont know what you are thinking of us. i dont know if you saw us being together for a long time. i dont know if you still think of me. all i know is that you want us to be friends. but for how long? i am willing to wait for you, but am i the one you want? did you pictures us the way i did? everytime i think i'm ready to give up and move on, im not. i just cant move on no matter how hard i try or what i do. you tell keshia stuff i already know but why do i always come to a conclusion that we would be together in the future? why does it always come back to the same answer no matter how and what i do not to? everynight i pray so hard and ask so much that i'm afraid im overdoing it. but i cant help it. im so lost and confused and only you can get me back on my feet again.
stop looking down
brightness will break through, and SHINE @ Sunday, October 05, 2008
ch-ch-ch-chia
andrea chia
19091989
canadian university college
lacombe, alberta, canada
CH-CH-CH-CHIA!
